{"id":1964,"date":"2019-03-18T05:55:51","date_gmt":"2019-03-18T05:55:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tamizhini.in\/?p=1964"},"modified":"2021-03-09T19:00:49","modified_gmt":"2021-03-09T13:30:49","slug":"bittersweet-nakul-vac","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tamizhini.in\/?p=1964","title":{"rendered":"Bittersweet \/ Emily Dickinson (Translated Poems)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Bittersweet<\/strong><\/h2>\n
\n
You wouldn’t know<\/div>\n
how sweet it was<\/div>\n
back then<\/div>\n
to imagine and<\/div>\n
yearn<\/div>\n
when I couldn’t<\/div>\n
see or<\/div>\n
be with her.<\/div>\n
Attaining<\/div>\n
the unattainable privacy,<\/div>\n
pressing my lips to her ear<\/div>\n
I had once cooed the words<\/div>\n
Sweetie pie,<\/div>\n
upon which<\/div>\n
pretending to un-hear<\/div>\n
what she had just heard<\/div>\n
She turned and<\/div>\n
with a mocking smile asked<\/div>\n
If I were nuts.<\/div>\n
That sweet smile<\/div>\n
I didn’t get to see anymore, since,<\/div>\n
despite writing to her<\/div>\n
much transpired that’s<\/div>\n
too bitter to recall.<\/div>\n
I have come far<\/div>\n
from those days<\/div>\n
when the hands of Fate<\/div>\n
with casual indifference<\/div>\n
gathered me up<\/div>\n
and inserted me between<\/div>\n
the iron wheels of<\/div>\n
opposing rollers and<\/div>\n
wrung me dry,<\/div>\n
but still<\/div>\n
each time I see<\/div>\n
ants swarming<\/div>\n
spilled sweets<\/div>\n
I cannot<\/div>\n
avoid that bitter taste<\/div>\n
that swells<\/div>\n
beneath my tongue<\/div>\n
even now!<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
*<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
\n
(Original : ‘Peykkarumbu’ by K. Mohanarangan)<\/strong><\/em><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

Emily Dickinson (1830 – 1886)<\/strong><\/h2>\n
\n
Distance is<\/div>\n
not<\/div>\n
hundred years and<\/div>\n
thousands of miles.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Gender<\/div>\n
\n
Language<\/div>\n
Looks<\/div>\n
It is<\/div>\n
all<\/div>\n
this too.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
But still<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
\n
To you whom forever<\/div>\n
my face can<\/div>\n
not be known<\/div>\n
my heart<\/div>\n
trembles and<\/div>\n
wails<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
In that<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
\n
space of thought that lacks<\/div>\n
night and day.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
\n
_________________________<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

She<\/strong><\/h2>\n
As per her own confession<\/div>\n
She had eyes that were<\/div>\n
like sherry<\/div>\n
in a glass that<\/div>\n
the guest leaves<\/div>\n
whose dammed up<\/div>\n
\n
secrets, not for publication,<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
consume<\/div>\n
\n
His life spirit in a<\/div>\n
foreign land’s<\/div>\n
fading twilight.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

She who is Emily Dickinson<\/strong><\/h2>\n
\n
<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
\n
<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
\n
Eternal ephemeral to and froing.<\/div>\n
\n
An indifferent nature coupled with<\/div>\n
\n
increasing hesitations,<\/div>\n
but towards her an honest<\/div>\n
friendship.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
The dark shadow of human loneliness,<\/div>\n
Searing white heat of rejected relationships<\/div>\n
not<\/div>\n
these alone<\/div>\n
is She<\/div>\n
to me.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

<\/h3>\n

*<\/strong><\/h3>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Some moments in some<\/div>\n
Many eons in many,<\/div>\n
Behind all<\/div>\n
The feeling of<\/div>\n
being with<\/div>\n
the abiding shadow<\/div>\n
of her poetry’s<\/div>\n
Eternal Present.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

*<\/strong><\/h3>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Like that shard of glass<\/div>\n
that nicks<\/div>\n
our unaware feet<\/div>\n
as we bathe beneath<\/div>\n
a waterfall<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Her<\/div>\n
fragmented word nicks and<\/div>\n
bleeds<\/div>\n
the poem<\/div>\n
invisibly.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

*<\/strong><\/h3>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Like breeze through bereaving houses<\/div>\n
She had wandered<\/div>\n
refusing to stay frozen<\/div>\n
in the chill of cold dying moments and<\/div>\n
at one particular point<\/div>\n
had willfully observed<\/div>\n
the ebbing of will.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
“Accustomed to keeping the body in shadow and<\/div>\n
the soul in sunshine”<\/div>\n
She is one of those.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

*<\/strong><\/h3>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Defying nature’s laws<\/div>\n
Emily Dickinsonism<\/div>\n
possesses me and<\/div>\n
is raring<\/div>\n
to open its flood gates<\/div>\n
to flush my tradesman bloodstream.<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

*<\/strong><\/h3>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
Her poetry<\/div>\n
Like that of Andal’s<\/div>\n
A treasure house before which<\/div>\n
my poetry<\/div>\n
mere dust stained<\/div>\n
chump change in the cash register<\/div>\n
despite which<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n
A life long yeaning<\/div>\n
for her<\/div>\n
subtle vision<\/div>\n
that bewildered<\/div>\n
Murthy.<\/div>\n
+<\/div>\n
<\/div>\n

(From “Arthanaari Avan Ival”, Poems by N. Jeyabaskaran)<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bittersweet You wouldn’t know how sweet it was back then to imagine and yearn when I couldn’t see or be with her. Attaining the unattainable privacy, pressing my lips to her ear I had once cooed the words Sweetie pie, upon which pretending to un-hear what she had just heard She turned and with a […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":104,"featured_media":2192,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[9,11],"tags":[406,405,46],"class_list":["post-1964","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-english","category-poetry-english","tag-emily-dickinson","tag-nakul-vac","tag-46"],"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":1777,"url":"https:\/\/tamizhini.in\/?p=1777","url_meta":{"origin":1964,"position":0},"title":"The Ba in the Bapu (Part 3)","author":"\u0ba4. \u0b95\u0ba3\u0bcd\u0ba3\u0ba9\u0bcd","date":"17.02.19","format":false,"excerpt":"To Read: First Part :\u00a0https:\/\/tamizhini.in\/2018\/11\/14\/the-ba-in-the-bapu-kannan-t\/ Second Part :\u00a0https:\/\/tamizhini.in\/2019\/01\/13\/the-ba-in-the-bapu-part-2-kannan-t\/ (9) After a long period of personal and political transformation, the Gandhi family left South Africa in July, 1914. 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